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Mar 04

The Truths I Have Yet To Learn

I recently turned forty. It’s made me suddenly aware of time and age and maturity (or immaturity).

I certainly don’t mean that I am mature. Heaven forbid.

But I am suddenly aware of the passage of time in a way I was not before, even more so as I just attended a retirement party for friends I could not believe were old enough to retire. That places me just that much closer to retirement as well—a revelation I was unprepared for. Time runs away from you, I suppose.

In my twenties I barely noticed time. I married, played, worked, traveled, played more. Every day was like the next—a cacophony of fun and work and pleasure.

My thirties were concerned with diapers and bottles, daycare and elementary schools, homework and the inevitable chauffeuring to sports events. And writing. I was on maternity leave when I turned thirty, and decided it was time to be a writer or let the dream die. In the words of my wonderful mother, “Shit or get off the pot.”

Now I am forty. “The days are long,” they say. “The years are short.” I look back and wonder what happened to both.

Here I am, wondering what I’ve learned between the ages of twenty and forty. Part of me says nothing.

My awful temper still runs away from me, wreaking verbal havoc. I still have infinite patience for those in need, but none for those who are blinded by hatred or too stupid to look beyond the end of their nose. I have some of the same insecurities—though I have thankfully graduated from others. I still like to have the last word in an argument, which I am trying hard to overcome.

And, dammit, I’m still scared of the dark. Too much imagination for me to get over that one!

What have I learned, then?

Enjoy every single day. Because you don’t know if you have 20,000 days gifted to you, or 30,000 days. And that’s a 27 year difference.

Family is the base of your life, but friends will fulfill you.

Children bring joy and sorrow in equal measure.

Dreams can, and do, come true—if you apply a lot of elbow grease.

You are never as smart (or beautiful or wonderful or talented) as you think you are.

If you blink, a decade will pass.

Listen to your spouse so that when they are gone, you have their voice in your head.

Take joy in the sunny days, as they are few in the winter.

Just because you don’t love your job every day, doesn’t mean it’s a bad job.

Your children will leave you before you are ready.

A spouse is not a crutch or a person to lose yourself in. A spouse is a partner.

Sometimes, life just plain old sucks, so make lemonade out of those lemons.

Don’t whine. It’s unbecoming and annoying.

It’s a lot easier to lose weight at twenty than it is at forty.

Wrinkles just happen. I don’t know how, but one day, you just wake up with them.

Loved ones leave you before you are ready, so appreciate them while they are here.

There is more of course. More life lessons that I can’t even put into words. And I wonder, how much more will I know at sixty? Or eighty? What other truths will I discover going forward?

I also wonder what lessons others have learned. No two lives are the same, and we can never fully understand what other people have lived through, as we cannot be in their shoes.

So I ask you, what have you learned in your life?

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  1. Diane Burton

    Beautiful post, Alyssa. So much good advice. I heartily agree with all of them. Even though I have a few decades on you, I’m still learning. When we stop learning, we wither. Taking advantage of every day encompasses so many items on your list. Making time for family can mean putting aside plans, but I’ve never regretted that. I wish I’d done more of that when we were all younger. My newest motto: if not now, when? That covers my writing career, my personal life, and my family and friends. As you say, we don’t know how many days we have left.

    Happy Birthday!

    1. Alyssa Alexander

      “When we stop learning, we wither.” That is so true! I hope that for every day that goes by, I learn something new. Hopefully, I will age learnedly. (Gracefully would be great too, but learnedly is more important!

      And, yes, family is always at the center, as it should be. <3

  2. Diana Stout

    Love the post, Alyssa! Reminds me so much of my own significant dates and the changes they brought. What I’ve learned in my life? Patience. Everything happens in its own time, no matter how much I want to hurry it. To let go. That I can’t fix, solve, or be the one to do a certain job, no matter how much I’d like to. That in letting go, I’m no longer in the center of the circus or in its tent, thus I’m eliminating the stress. I’ve even learned to let go of a number of writing projects. As a result, I’ve become healthier, having learned that stress is the start of most illnesses. Well, that and healthy eating.

    When I look at the possible length of time left, I get busy doing. So many writing projects still and not enough hours in the day to do everything. At least, now, it’s way more fun!

    No need to tell you to enjoy. You’re doing it!

    1. Alyssa Alexander

      Letting go is a big one, I think. Of anger or hurt, or just anything that doesn’t make you happy. An, oh, patience. I’m still working on that one. 🙂

  3. Sue Hafemeister suehafe

    Life is precious so have fun!!!!

    1. Alyssa Alexander

      Another good lesson. Have fun!!

  4. denise

    Happy Birthday!

    Life is short. Make the most out of in your own way.

    1. Alyssa Alexander

      Oh, so true, Denise. It does have to be in our own way. No two lives are same, so grab your particular brand of happiness and run with it!

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